Mentor Blog Post #3

In my most recent conversation with my mentor, I learned the importance of relying on God’s guidance instead of my own.  My mentor pointed out the fact that God wants me to give my future to him.  I expressed my fear of the future and my concern as to whether I am in the right major/heading the right direction in life.  My mentor pointed me to Proverbs 3:5-6, which declares “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight.^”  Living out this truth found in the Word of God is so vital to my flourishing as a Christian.  I tend to want to take my life in my own hands, but I feel God calling me to give it all to Him instead of trying to take everything into my own hands and perform for His approval.   My mentor reminded me that God is making me into the beautiful creation He planned on me being from the beginning of time.  Through the reconciliation only found in Jesus Christ, I can come before the throne of God with bold confidence.  Despite all of my past mistakes, God takes me as I am and is willing to mold me into a new creation.  When talking with my mentor, I expressed regret on decisions I have made in the past.  He reminded me that there is nothing that can separate me from the love of God.  It is not as if there is a plan A for me to be on only if I perform perfectly.  No, God works through imperfect people.  When I am weak, He is strong in me.  My mentor pointed out my fear of uncertainty and also lead me to Proverbs 16:9 which assures me that God will direct my steps.  While I do not know what the future will hold, I do not have to see life as giant burden I have to carry.  For so long I was submitting to the burden of perfectionism around trying to earn God’s approval without even realizing it. I was constantly anxious and still am, and I feel that God wants me to let go of that anxiety and let Him fill me with His Holy Spirit, which will empower me to do the good works He has called me to do.